Luminous Nebula’s Journey

Acceptance

This journey has led me to understanding that everything around us can be a lesson and blessing. Spirit comes in many forms. As a child I saw shadow/light people and I felt fearful. I grew up with an imaginary friend who I later discovered was part of my spiritual team. That gave me comfort and support with these energies. My childhood was full of trauma, but it assisted me with my healing journey. My childhood was stripped away at a young age and I really have been relearning this child like essence through this human experience. Upon birth I had my left lung not fully developed and was hospitalized for most of my younger years. I lost my father at birth with a mother who was absent minded. She is not in a place of processing or dealing with her own grief and healing. I had to learn to navigate with the way life flowed and unfolded.

The Call

Challenge and change are not my name yet, an obstacle to rearrange. To reclaim, learn the game to release the shame, blame and reframe. To learn to nurture my body, soul and mind. To learn to tame my emotions and thoughts that untwine to realign. I left home at 16, to find my own path. School and conditioning from society formed this mindset. “In order to survive I had to work hard and push myself past the limits.” I remember one summer morning biking to work. When my imaginary friend came in saying “I was working too hard and needed to slow down. This is not the path for your growth.”

I spiritually bypassed his remark and told him that “ I needed to survive and make a living.” That day I was struck by a car. Fortunately a few bumps, and bruises nothing serious yet a warning! In my 20’s I continued to move onto work. Forgetting to slow down and look within to find what my soul and heart wanted. Spirits and voices continued to come into my life. I continued to shut them down. I met my husband and fell in love, he helped me go back to school. I became a personal support worker and applied to nursing school. I wanted to help people in my community.

With Darkness comes Light

My dream to become a nurse and start a family changed so drastically, shattering me. My whole life was shaken to my core. I experienced a workplace accident in which I was confined to a wheelchair with the inability to walk. Doctors indicated sciatica with nerve impingements and damage to my spine. My nerve pain was persistent throughout my life. I was told by doctors that I would never have the ability to run, have children, or have the ability to experience a successful career. I tried surgeries, physio, medications and nothing seems to alleviate my nerve pain issues. I hit rock bottom in absolute pain and darkness. I felt like a zombie and went into survival mode. I realized I would often leave my body dissociate and was dissociating away from my feelings. I was ready to give up on everyone, even myself. I then began to question everything. Why do I feel this way? Why is this happening? Then as I began to explore my feelings and what was present. I saw this light inside my heart like a golden cord. I pulled on it and saw a golden swirl of energy turning, twirling, dancing which then turned into a golden light version of me.

My higher self showed me a version of me with a little girl laughing and playing. She showed me with a family adventuring in a forest. She showed me dancing like Tai chi moving energy. She brought me to what she called the galactic guardians part of the akashic records telling me I was part of the council of light and Unity of consciousness. We began unlocking my past, present and future existences. My higher self then guided me back to my body. She held her hands on my shoulders and whispered in my ear.

“You can Only fly as high as your belief system. What will you choose?”

Power of Belief

My guides wanted me to slow down, be present. To understand my traumas and depths of what I was experiencing. I began searching for other healing modalities. I would dream of receiving healing from my Pleiadian family and the waters of Minitaka. I began trusting in the universe. Learning to release fear and walk into the unknown. I was encouraged to have hope, courage, strength, love and would receive synchronicities that enlighten my inner knowing. Healing has its roller coaster ride of ups and downs. Moving back and forth from the wheelchair to a walker to a cane. I learned to improve my body, mind, and soul by giving myself patience.

My pregnancies had their challenges. My Doctor decided to have early term deliveries due to my nerve pain, and leg weakness. I held on to my belief that one day I could have the family I dreamt of. Which delivered so many miracles as I began to recognize that what finds us grows us. With the power of belief we can see the magic unfold with divine timing.

A New Chapter

At last when, my 1st daughter arrived sunny side up (5-8% population) I felt this deep level of connection that I had known before. Her aura shined like a rose gold essence. My oldest is very intuitive as well. Remembering past lives and how she chose me to be her mother. My second daughter came two years later with a purple/gold aura. Their passion and drive were very noticeable (Leo suns). They have taught me how wonderful and precious life is. How we can take just one step in a direction and see our vision grow. Once we learn to nurture and treasure what we have.

The Gift

I had just finished a workout and meditation. Was in my kitchen to grab a glass of water and I walked right through a shadow person. I felt paralyzed in fear. Like a child again my body felt shaky. I tried to shuffle on with my day getting my youngest ready for a swim lesson. As I loaded her in the car I heard this voice. Channeled through saying “Have no fear love is here you have a higher power. You are divinely connected and divinely protected. I began my drive and heard this song on the radio broadcasting move with love and give up fear. The next song was Higher Power by Coldplay. I parked my car and thought for a moment of how odd that was. I opened my door to get out and there at my feet was a necklace. My thought was “oh a child must had lost their amber necklace” As I touched the necklace it was cold but I felt my heart space grow and grow, then ignite like an EMF like a protective shield around me. I took the necklace home and began my crystal journey. The necklace was a tiger’s eye crystal which represents courage, fearlessness, protection, root chakra, assessing higher wisdom, boosting energy, promoting balance and has healing properties.

I followed the messages and the synchronicities. Meeting my spiritual team, angels, animal guides, deities, as well as star beings (extra terrestrial interstellar beings) Cosmic Star Families. I followed the ebbs and flows learning many spiritual modalities. I work with the guardians of the realms in accessing the Akashic records, and channeling messages to help obtain everything for the higher good. I understand my gifts and missions. Trusting in the process and knowing everyday is a gift. The present exists in the now!